Blurred Fantasy

What is my deepest darkest fantasy? i know what it is now. it is the one where i break free of my own self limiting chains. It is the one where I hand myself a key and unlock my own shackles. Maybe... it is to feel free from the weight of the world that acts as a crushing force onm y gentle soul. Maybe the dream is to be happy and healthy and secure. To reach some freedom. Mymost forcefully wriggling fantasy is to have that lonely desperate girl and hand her the love sitting in front of her that she refuses to see. if there is just some direction that she could be pushed. If each woman was to make it with one of the 4 men she sees most. or maybe for each guy to have all 4 of the girls he sees mostMaybe I am telling myself that I need to love of more than one person. Maybe Ireally need my own love.

I love me.
I love me.

I am in control of my own violence, and gently properly directed turn it into assertive action.
I have focus and descipline. i have a heart and a soul. I am confident in my ability as a human warrior. Maybe that is what I can learn today is how to be a warrior.

I will work to perfect my fire.